Veronika Decides to Die**

Etched into the very skin I bleed
My sins penetrate, stitching a false illusion of emotions and love
Insanity at its peak
I roam around the grave for endless hope

Darkness delves into twilight
Essence of filth spread across the soil
He lured me into the night
Feeding the endless hunger of lies I love

Devoid of faith, I fall alone
Like the amber leaves welcoming autumn
He rose from the ashes, out of the coldest night
And whispered unto me pure freedom

Through the darkened oaks, charred leaves and sooty sky
I catch his eyes made of stone
Gazing unto the stars, my spirit sighs
His cold embrace, my fevered blood

Foul prayers muttered under breath
Apocalyptic emotions explodes the night
Forged myself into his dreams
Tainted soul, one with him

Dead eyes breathe over me
Separating the truth plastered on my face
My soul is held up in glory
Celebrating my final mortal days


** Title Courtesy: Paulo Coelho

Sepulchral Exile

I wander in solitude, ancient lullabies I sing
I witness the forest as she burns her winter marks
I’m a watcher to the sunrise, the smoldering sun tearing the cold
The wind moans… and the spirit sighs
I sat by the river and poured my eye

Shrouded in sorrow, cloaked in pain
I thought ill endure it… I thought it will fade away
A mere destiny, a dance of fate I played
I laughed, I weeped… I begged them to take me away

Mystical winds leave behind a trail
Enduring mortal chaos and chill
Morbid faces, they whispered my name
Voices echoed and they shrilled

I endured the overcast. I raced through the gates
Emptiness cajoled the thin air and gloom I embraced
They left me at the arrival of autumn
In the forest of pulsating damp air

And grief, it possessed me…grief, it decayed
Amidst the forest, you can hear me
My grotesque glory fade.

In The Winter of My Second Death

She knelt besides death,
daunting murmurs all around
Plucked hair off her head and
gathered some dust from the ground

"It was winter that called him...
to join the deceased... to the world of ail"
a deep murmur to the pensive ear...
a joyless sound repeats her mournful tale

The dreadful hour is past
The breath long gone
Angels immortal calm her soul
As they snatch his spirit from this world of woe

No converse can delight her heart
No adulation from her shall impart
Beatrice in winter... beautiful her long mane
Beatrice in winter... bid goodbye to her sane

Reluctant they flew,
the winged darts of death
A calm resignation smiled upon her cheek,
As...

Death fell on her gates, the next twilight
Sadness clouded her illum'd eye

Beatrice in Blossom
Radiant she shone
Beatrice in Winter
She's long gone

Nocturnal Voice

There is a light that appears just after the dark
I open the lock to the dead mans knock
I am silent! I become still!
Shadow whispers behind the sill

The room filled with an empty bed
Silent whimpers leak from my head
Time was tied and so were the smiles
So that we could just talk for a while

Strange it seemed… stranger by every minute
As I tried dragging you into my dreams
But I couldn’t do much
You stared right through me

In my secret lair, where none can spy
I tried holding you, to make you mine
Perfect tantrums and rage displayed
Veiled in darkness embracing the failed

I drank from the cups of Hope
to quench the thirst of my unknown

God's Decree

Awake and I feel the fall of darkness
Reminiscing the black hours we spent
Oblivious to the evil emanation
The night, the hour you went

The longer the lights delay
The lesser I chose to say
Hours went and years passed
As I yearned for God's decree

Bitter would be my stench
Bitter, the taste was me
Heartburn...
Yearning for God’s decree

Countless cries… I lament
Dead letters for him I sent
Yet...
I yearned for God’s decree

Once again this day weak and weary
welcomes the the night so dreary
curious volumes of forgotten lore
brings me closer to your shore

Fatal attraction I foresee
But I wait for God’s decree

Mourning Glory (A flowers lamentation)

Autumn confides in me, the ritual of the sorrow
Sweeping the canopy, spreads damnation for morrow
Invades my spirit and feeds on my soul
How enticing! As she finishes my whole

There was no invitation, but it was my turn
Shriveling within… it was my time to burn
My body quailed as she explored me
And my courage failed as she tore me

Opaque and dull in flesh
Entangled thorns...a mesh
Mute… a silent lamentation
Withered; Infestation

Fast locked within her cold embrace
I lay trembling, betrayed
Kindly she killed me with delight
As I bowed… away that very night

The Black Corona

Under the dark veil, covered in grief,
Mystified presence, her dark eye… gleamed.
Dark origins flowed from her mane,
Stinging grief was all that remained

Gazed into the fire, she danced with the flames
Poured me another to celebrate my absent days
The mead twisted my sinister past
Made me travel to the unknown lands

Under the dark wheels, she wrung my hand
Her fingers gaily moved through my pain
As the glare of the streets grew dim
She cried out loud and started to sing

Wrapped me in ashes, she neglected my cries
Ripped my heart and purged my soul
“Its hell, where you belong”

Darkness descended and weakened my heart
Jaded… under the bloodlit moon
She watched the burning pyre,
as flames rose into the darkness,
burning the symbols of her dying past

Her Death and His Fallacy

The night breathed down her spine
his cold numb fingers caressed her skin
the wind whispering several promises
stirring sweetness in the air

something had consumed the eerie of her past
clouded her vision and shook her very stance
his strong words cleansed her through and through
twisting and twirling, he brought her carcass towards him

but nothing could awake her lifeless remains
no love swept her motionless corpse
she dint wake up the dawn next day
nor were there any emotions that played

the depth of his love couldnt reclaim her life
so he just dreamed and dreamed and dreamed to regain her back.

Fields of Decay

Untamed unnamed untouched corpses,
Lying to rot by the day light…
Cries of foul play filled the ocean
Mothers bleeding crimson bright.

A giant guilt engulfed the masses
Leaving everything gloom and grim
Howls of agony echoed, as life passes
Bringing the day to its brim.

Purple Despair

twas he who conquered
conquered my body till last
plunged the spear in me
and made merry till my last

his slow & steady act
teared my veins apart
the shining red ball theory
melted down my shaft

twas he who conquered misery
parted his delights with me
took me to the seventh heaven
and pushed me down in grief

inside her seed that hid her head
cursed a life full of dread
to the world unknown, she left his gates
beyond decay without a grace

the sun tasted blind, the day it forgot to shine
her carcass, the lifeless remain
her disembodied corpse, never been named!

Angelic Devotion

forever a fervor of fire beneath
just sealed in my flames
of past action and deeds

i chose to unlock
my flickering flame
untangle the tales
of my sovereign man

his eyes spoke of
a thousand delight (to me)
of men and myths
of passion and creed

a child in da daylight
a preacher was he
cut my confusion
a man on d high seas

he rode by the winds
nightrider was he
raging bull
he charged upon me

a convention he opened
trautmatising my stance
picked me from the congregation
gave me one last chance

a mighty arm dat strangled
choked me from the mass
saw me bleed and dieing
killed my wretched past

he breathed a new life unto me
my sovereign lord at last

disgusted i clothed in shame and misery
never tried to understand his plan
misunderstanding i gifted
to the man who luvd me till my last

November it rained
a rapture i stepped in
entangled in luv
i offered myself to him

in third heaven we embraced
wen the damsel danced
we hid behind from their gaze

the mighty arm
dat slashed the wrist of pain
caressed my dusk driven dark mane

elated i chant
his name by the day
long to be in his arms
wen the stars gaze me as i lay.

Dead Foetus

i spoke an unspoken truth
clandestine i thought...i wud cover with grim
he read me rite across my cloudy eyes
the night she died ...the flowery child inside


i picked up seeds of remorse
dialled the numbers i felt close
chanted the prayers to feel better
still disturbed .............a penance

i assumed ill die of the guilt
but anguish was all i earned
yearned for a smile..... by him
i stood beside my mortal twin

it pricked me .........d question
of y i killed my spawn
is it my desire to earn
fashion and fawn??

i never saw d dawn of hope
till today he never spoke....

i yearned for my trial
than face the guilt & pain
but he chose to make me live
and play the lead in my own game...

Buried Alive

they placed my skull among the remains
remains of my ancestors and my own race

time ticked away, as they had no time to waste
delirium infested moon showered
the final seeds of craze

caked in the soil, moist and tanned
they crossed my hand and took a stand
defeated, .....my will to live ....escaped my carcass
"a lifeless blood drained body cant be awake" they said at last

a hermetic casket
was the last my eyes could see
though paralysed,
i was buried alive

they stuck a blade upon me
a blade with which oozed
the ruby eyed blood stream

they assumed me to be dead
but still my eyes could see
buried alive among the rest
lost the hope to see dawn and her beams...

i longed for life to come and take me away
but twas death that knocked on my door
with her forever to stay.....

Down the Silent Waters

i passed the growing ivy
they turned their gaze away
far across the moonlit lake
where unknown myths floated awake

the moan i heard
raised bubbles
upto the november skies
popped a song so melodic
viewers marched towards the sight

tramped the golden growth
with violet painted skies
cast a spell and the onlookers fell
a rage among the waters
gulped the mass who rhymed

i stared across my casement
a wardrobe floated by
enraged by the masses
i heard their silent cries

dawn replaced by darkness
still i stuck to the sill
felt the touch of my windowpane
extended my ears
to silence and the grim

Christ's Revelation

a thousand fate
left holding on my cloak
can i repeat
the thousand prayers
of my own flock??

i avenge a war
against obscurity for them
as mist, as clouds, as rains & yen
i drape my folks in rapture ....
how lil they kno of how i survive

demons tempted me
a life of sovereignty
but i still chose to carry
even the burdens
of my enemy

revelation predicts
the arrival of the beast
no sooner will the day arrive
wen My Father decides
who survives and who dies!!

Fragile Existence

they smelt lavender in English rains
the greens breed on her ashes again
cremated before she saw her face
even before she knew her name

a daylight she honoured
a night she stayed awake
a song she heard from her mother
and many noises she couldn't take

a breath to catch and a life to save
a battle to be won
a darkness to stay away

sensed a gloom among the mortals in white
masked in the glory of medicines in life
a life to pump in and not to say good bye
they strive hard to make her breath and cry

A resonance echoed , she felt her eyes close
cold sensation down her last bone
white covered this infants plain
yet she was named....
remembered in suffering till this day






R.I.P
Rahel Miriam

01/06/2007 - 02/06/2007

Perturbed

A whisper in the crowd
as she heads down
among her comrades of affection

jaded and lost
as she steps in the hall
thousand eyes roving her direction

one steps out
among the crowd and follows her stride
tries to stand on her toe
and see her world with a pride

a winter of change he wanted in her
but.....
nothing surpassed her clustered mind

a grand sermon by him
traumatised her and
made her mind limp (inside)

her devoted maiden
stepped for her aid
only to find a fallen morbid angel
one step closer too her brain
would blow her peace and perception

questions wound her body and soul
try not to know her
she is a rhyme unknown

Ode to Opeth

( An ode to the people whose lyrics inspired me to think and write and travel the world of illusions..........Many of the words used below are the name of their tracks...)


nothing brings so serene
as the forest of October
starts to harvest

the silhouette of the
funeral portrait
reminds me of
the serenity painted death

though the black immortal rose will
share the dirge of November
in the hours of wealth
commence my isolation years

beneath the mire
to bid you farewell
in the mist she was standing
near her windowpane

in my time of need
hope leaves
and death whispered a lullaby
for absent friends

on the face of Melinda
white cluster paints
the lepers affinity
under the weeping moon

a fair judgement
is my wreath............

............deliverance
by the pain i see in others

i advent to the night and the silent waters
with closure of credence to rid the disease
creating my ending credits.

By My Masters Pride

i howled in d shadows
lifted the veil of sin
canopy of my master
blinded me within

ruptured sores on cadaver
tearing me apart
by my masters toe .....on d shackle
a callous killing i starved

drench me .....in abomination
make me go extinct
sheathed in desolation
a vicious circle sinks in

fangs dig deeper
of my sinister past
inches me nearer
to survivals one last chance

Doctrine of Agony

she breathes by the moonrise
a wall to cross again
beneath the calmness
rests an anger upon her stare

she looks past d window
a dogma to sign
a fluid understanding
of the treachery and d lie.

she hangs on the extreme
battling for her share of air
fell amid d clay
a brawl to dictate her ways

encrusted in miseries
her fall was a disclosure
testimony for her time
to be run over by nine

clawed to her doctrine
she leaped towards d Nile
drowned in the beauty
of pain and denial.

Dearth

i await for arrival
in the stone cold eerie wind
whisper the mourning silence
her green blue bleak eye stint

conceived an understanding
as she tore her gaze from me
systematic she ripped off
the winter from the winds

denial , she tasted
from her unborn wretched twins
perched upon the willow tree
her execution made her history

Avril et Mai

i went back to ponder
how April passed by
d cold chilly winter
melted down
d windows ice

it was he who waved
a final goodbye
with sorted out black roses (for me)
a brethren to join by

they walked up the moors
covered great mountains soon
to see the holy carved eye
upon the cypress star shine

cover me with fever
freeze me down my spine
bring those cold December's
celebrating d holy days

embrace my liquid fragrance
that made me sin my ways
make me yours forever
as April mates the May

Nocturnal visions

keep me far from the lantern
afar...... where the unheard cold sings
make me blind in the darkness
where creeps d unborn sin

across the gruesome corner
where the shiny sphere ball blings
i saw my own reflection
unable to remember my past stings

let my arms
search for the ordnance
to kill d ghosts of my past
who made believe the tales
of my life and the untrue wrath

their acts of thousand ages
percolated through my skin
made me taste my own dishonour
named me wrath child instead

faint flames flickering the tower
the last my eyes could see
plagued before the sunrise
i was d only one to be smeared

Minced Me

amidst the chaos
she heads her home
among brutalities
she cleanses her
impure blood of me

lead me home
she winces in pain
from the cliff I'm hanging
going down my own grave

buried my existence
she walks away from my chain
moth covered sheets of stain
sampled tested blood
she carries the deadly grains

minced meat stuck in d drain
ascending d stairs
she found her trouble starting to stare

over the windowpane
she spotted blood on d sill
her grin on her lip saw
my body hanging on her cherry tree

midnight massacre

darkened dampen roads reveal
dressed up whores ready to unveil
stripped out shame and traded flesh
spreading among cartilage hungry men

silence slashed d wrist of shame
wen she entered with face full of pain
white was sober in her mane
black covered her insecure plain

toppled men covered their face,
woman laughed loud in insane,
where hath she entered, this beautiful dame
right in d dungeon of dirt and the games.

hung her head so low to the ground
her eyes reflected
in the rain drenched lands
eerie touched d skin of filth's
as she sat under the devils ring

a step towards her, took he
was among the few who planned this
touched the black robe she hid her plain
burned to the ground was he
set afire in her blaze of glory

so pure was she,
her gaze met the eyes of the burning beast
massacre she set
wherever she went

silence was all she could churn
another thunder she went insane
ripped her flesh and untied her mane
pool of blood oozed down her lane

cried and ran away
away in the forbidden forest to stay
never heard , never to be seen

massacre she set
wherever she went

Black Mottled Might

paint my face with blood sweat n tears
write my story in dim dark lights
sit on d creepy corridors
and begin my lonesome fight

born to the grim and aloof
distant faces i remember
might say my birth was a plight
to save their lusty night

mother of pain n boredom
bring me close to you
let thy darkness engage me
in d game of gloom n doom

clip my mind that makes me
wander for the light
entwine me in the misery
of darkness and its might

make me cry and torture me
let the walls too hear
the tales of cryptic angel
her anger and her snare

what might she used to carry
onlookers cursed by d stare
black immortal chamber
her portrait still remains

Amazin grace

it struck 10..
its my time to begin
reached my hands
to the bloodspread knife

i see the tanned face..
speakin a housand disgrace
he killed my grace..
and there she lies in her grave

his simple deeds of skinnin her mortal soul
began wen i met her at her door
in the vast lights
the darkness met his minds

plotted against my sweet nymph
killed her and scurried he bodies within the earth
but her cry still can be heard
her dark screech reached my ears

now beside me lies my own twin soul
plotted against my own fair dear love
lie awake as i make him bleed his way
back there where my grace awaits

into her grave he will abide
restin his soul he will decide
"o mighty grace .......y did i kill your beauiful fate "

the chime........ decided the time
its struck 10
time for me to make it cum to an end

ur time here gets d final ring
say ur final prayers
as u join the grim

grace for u i do
grace for u i kill

rest in peace grace
i still luv ur sweet face

Decimated Dreams

as i wait in this cold celled dungeon,
thoughts running down about vengance,
will i see d lght of morow

every word u said i believed,
every flesh u showed,
i decieved
now im killin all for u

locked up in the cage of deciet,
nvr knu u wud defeat,
everythin just turns back in for me..


Moonlit sky paints sorrow
the ghouls of omen bring morose
still i heed the hymns of survival
my own revival
without denial


thought we be far away from here,
a place of our own and no one to sneer,
but this illusion was all dat i saw

u left my carcass to be devoured upon,
left me after playin this game for sure,
still my last thoughts were of u.

how could u my sweet dear lady,
after all ive done for u till this day
y u left me to be dead!!!


Moonlit sky paints sorrow
the ghouls of omen bring morose
still i heed the hymns of survival
my own revival
without denial

nvr thought ud play this game,
trust for sure was in ur name,
but im stuck here with this wrath of insanityyyyyyyyyyy....

dont shun me in this dark
dnt shut ur eyes this time
ull pay for this in sum way

swear on my rottenin putrified cartilage
on my everlastin pain and burnin enrage,
lust will engulf u my angel,
always rmbr that in my name

GAMES PEOPLE PLAY

the sun wont shine again
the day, come prepared
u lied again
and met the same phase

u live by ur wants
neverending desires
flaming fires
and met the day that carried it all away

crawling thru darknes
searchin for the eternal light
for a neverending sight
of freedom from u

from the inside
i was always right
but got carried away
with the desire to be with u

all i wanted was to be with u
but time revealed the deadly face of truth
never ending fame, there rose ur name
and left me stranded no where to go

u thought its over
think uve played it fair?
think it over again,

rose frm the darkness
set by a flame
desire to win my freedom
i came over again

with the grin to kill
and the will to gain
set by ur rules
i played the game again

this time i wont be a puppet
to dance by ur tunesn
or be a whiner
cribbin for u

i kno wat im doin
i kno y im here
to perish the one's
who thught
i wud never rise again

Now at the moment
i lie here
with another grin on my face
sanity i say, kills someones smile away

as i lie on his grave
i think ive played it fair
now someday ill rembr
all the games ppl play.